what keeps me up at night...

i have been blessed with the opportunity to babysit for some of the coolest and nicest families there are! and it is these families that get my mind thinking on my future. (i am babysitting right now, but not to worry everyone is asleep and i am spending the night.) 

the questions that i have are simple really, they are the same questions everyone asks at some point in their life.

Who am i going to marry, what kind of job will my husband have, how many kids will we have...things like that. 

at times these questions make me want to fast forward my life so i can expirience all of this, and then, when i really think about it, it doesn't. im not ready to be married and have responsibility. 

as much as i hate to say it, i like the way my life is right now. i like being single (some of the times) and not having to worry about someone else. i like being able to come and go as i please not having to answer to anyone. and i especially like being able to spend my money however i want. you all know i like to shop, and with the way things are right now, i can lay out a couple hundred dollars on something and not have to worry about how i am going to pay the bills.

 i like my life the way it is, i may not have a whole ton of friends, i may not even have a social life, but im ok with that. ive discovered that i actually prefer to be on my own. as john mayer once said "im perfectly lonely". and i find that 100% true.

 i love to sit and read books, i always have. i could spend days locked up in my "beach resort" (thats what my parents call my room) with just the comfort of my book. its who i am.

the only thing i would like about being married right about now would be having a best friend by my side no matter what. i dont really have that now, actually, i never really have. i have always been peoples "back up" if their first choice was unavailable.

 but thats not going to happen anymore, i chose me. from now on i am going to do what is best for me. and with that i would like to set some goals...ive actually been wanting to set some goals, and putting them on the internet might just be what i need to make me stick to them.

so here we go:

1. be healthier, this includes changing my diet to that of a heather one and exercising more often. i am actually going to begin an 8 week running program starting monday. i mainly want to tone up and become stronger. 
2. work on bettering myself, my religion really has become an important aspect of my life, it alway has been. ive just never taken as much time as i should to prioritize it. but starting now i will. also bettering myself includes being friendlier. ask anyone in my family and they would tell you im the grouchy princess, well now im just going to be the princess;)
3. budget my money. this is a no brainier, i know how to do it, it is all just a matter of eliminating my shopping...and thats tough... but if i want enough money saved for attending a university, i will need to save more. 

as of right now, those are the goals i want to focus on. and in about two weeks, ill update you and let you know how it is going. 

but as for now, i am crazy tired and have work in the morning and im going to have three little kids with me all weekend so i might as well get as much sleep as i can. 

buenas noches, 

amor Allyson